Reading: 50 Shades of Grey. Yes, I joined the latest craze!! Not that far into it, so nothing to really report, but, cannot wait to get enthralled!
Watching: Trying to finish catching up on The Big Bang Theory and need to get caught up on Supernatural & Once Upon a Time as well. Watched Kevin Smith's Red State yesterday, boy, that was incredibly engaging. I was all about blowing them crazies up...
Working on: We just finally convinced my Meamaw and Pappap to sign a lease on an assisted living cottage! So the next two weeks will be chock full of organizing their house and moving them. Did I mention that they've lived in the same house for at least 40 years. That's a lot of years of collecting stuff.... oy....
Thinking about: Me and B. And how good we are together, and how annoying and shitty it was when someone close to us completely tried to say the opposite over the weekend. The only good thing is that I think it might end up bringing us closer together. But... I feel really bad that this happened (though it was through no fault of my own, or his) and am sad that it might be the end of a good friendship. Or what we thought was a good friendship.
Anticipating: Moving Meamaw & Pappap, B's sisters wedding shower, the fact that even thought its raining today.... its almost summerrrrr!!!!
Listening to: Pretty much whatever is on BobRocks 101.5. And I've been listening to a lot of Miranda Lambert and Pistol Annies too :)
This stays from last time. :)
Wishing: That people would have kept their stupid false opinions to themselves. :(
Monday, May 14, 2012
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
One Year...
Wow. One of my friends posted that today is the one year anniversary of Osama Bin Laden being captured by the US Navy Seals. This completely blew my mind.
One year ago today, I was at the guy I was dating's house when I got the news. I was living with my parents. I was drinking all the time. I was pretty much hating my life all except for this guy (and my friends of course) and looking back... he wasn't good at all for me. He already had done the kid thing, he would never be the family (but still fun and spontaneous) man I wanted/needed.
One month after that night. My parents kicked me out of their house for hanging with this guy and all of our other motorcycle 'gang' friends. I was told I had to stop hanging out with ALL of them (pretty much they summed up anyone who had a motorcycle or was dating a motorcyclist into being pieces of shit), including my best girlfriend, K, and that if I didn't stop, I would have to move out. They BLOCKED my car in the driveway with their cars, hid my keys, all because their name was on the title of the car and "they did not want that car leaving the driveway". Well, since my name is FIRST on the title, I left that night, driving through the yard in my Honda Fit, and I have not slept at that house since. I stand by my decision, and I dont think I'll ever really be able to forget that my parents did this to me in this outrageous fashion. I felt hurt, abandoned, judged, and not trusted. What blew my mind the most? My father has two motorcycles, he had met most of the guys I hung out with. He took the actions of two of those guys, that I honestly didnt' even consider friends, just acquaintances because I liked everyone else, and judged the whole group of.. I'd say about 35 men and women. The majority of the guys are military veterans... they fought for our country and put their lives on the line. The majority of these men and women have good jobs and great families and wonderful, amazing children. The whole of this group would do anything for me if I needed help.
That night I went to my now roommates (H's) house and slept on the couch and cried myself to sleep. I have not left her house since. H and A (our other roommate) accepted me into their home and I am still living with them and loving every minute of it. They will always be my saviours for this and I love them so much (though how its possible that I love them moreeee than I did prior to this, I will never know hehe).
That night, I called the guy I was dating and he talked me through the sobs and said he'd call me back. He didn't call me for an entire week. An entire week of me feeling like I lost my family, like I lost the guy I liked, and entire week of abandonment. At this point I decided that I needed to make some changes.
Change #1: Lose the guy. I tried to stay friends with him, but... he never got over the fact that I wouldnt' accept him back into my dating life. This to me only screams my correct judgement in letting him go. If you cannot be mature enough to understand why it was so hard for me to forgive you for abandoning me when I needed support the most, then you are not the person for me.
Change #2: I did the one thing I had been wanting to do forever and was too scared to try. I joined roller derby. One of the best things I have ever done for myself. It gave me something to hold on to. It gave me confidence. It gave me a group of girls who will never turn their backs on me. It gave me a reason to keep going.
Change #3: I decided that I would never depend upon anyone so much as I did my parents again. Though this was maybe unrealistic on the dating front (I mean, when you love someone, you depend on them, right?), it has brought me on a journey of self-reilance that I needed. I am so much further out of debt, I take care of my own car, I usually am good with my budget, and I do not ever want to ask anyone for money again.
Moving from my parents and joining roller derby also help me slow my drinking role. I wanted nothing more back then than to be OUT of my parents house. My options? Drink with my friends. When I moved into H's house, I wanted to be home more, so I stopped going out drinking all the time. When I joined roller derby, I pretty much stopped drinking regularly all together (you cannot go to derby hungover, heck. no.). Not that drinking is a bad thing, but I think maybe my parents thought I was an alcoholic or something. I wasn't, I just.. didn't want to sit at home in my room in my parents house night after night being nagged and controlled.
Over the past year, I have developed a relationship with a guy I had met back in March of 2011. My new guy, B, is my best friend, my lover, my sidekick, and my supporter. He wants the same thing I do in life. I can see myself in five years with him, our kids, our many dogs, and our cute little house. He is perfect for me in all the ways I need. He's got a huge heart and cares for me so much. I couldnt' be happier.
One year ago today if you asked me where I thought I would be in a year, I would not have had any clue that this is where I would be at in my life. But I am so happy where I am and would not change a thing. Though my parents alienated themselves from me in a way that I dont think will ever change, I actually thank them for giving me an ultimatum on my life and I am still proud of my decision to stand up against them. (I do talk to my parents and have come along way with them, I just know that them doing this to me will always be in the back of my mind... warning me.)
Osama Bin Laden. Dead for a year. A year that completely changed my life.
One year ago today, I was at the guy I was dating's house when I got the news. I was living with my parents. I was drinking all the time. I was pretty much hating my life all except for this guy (and my friends of course) and looking back... he wasn't good at all for me. He already had done the kid thing, he would never be the family (but still fun and spontaneous) man I wanted/needed.
One month after that night. My parents kicked me out of their house for hanging with this guy and all of our other motorcycle 'gang' friends. I was told I had to stop hanging out with ALL of them (pretty much they summed up anyone who had a motorcycle or was dating a motorcyclist into being pieces of shit), including my best girlfriend, K, and that if I didn't stop, I would have to move out. They BLOCKED my car in the driveway with their cars, hid my keys, all because their name was on the title of the car and "they did not want that car leaving the driveway". Well, since my name is FIRST on the title, I left that night, driving through the yard in my Honda Fit, and I have not slept at that house since. I stand by my decision, and I dont think I'll ever really be able to forget that my parents did this to me in this outrageous fashion. I felt hurt, abandoned, judged, and not trusted. What blew my mind the most? My father has two motorcycles, he had met most of the guys I hung out with. He took the actions of two of those guys, that I honestly didnt' even consider friends, just acquaintances because I liked everyone else, and judged the whole group of.. I'd say about 35 men and women. The majority of the guys are military veterans... they fought for our country and put their lives on the line. The majority of these men and women have good jobs and great families and wonderful, amazing children. The whole of this group would do anything for me if I needed help.
That night I went to my now roommates (H's) house and slept on the couch and cried myself to sleep. I have not left her house since. H and A (our other roommate) accepted me into their home and I am still living with them and loving every minute of it. They will always be my saviours for this and I love them so much (though how its possible that I love them moreeee than I did prior to this, I will never know hehe).
That night, I called the guy I was dating and he talked me through the sobs and said he'd call me back. He didn't call me for an entire week. An entire week of me feeling like I lost my family, like I lost the guy I liked, and entire week of abandonment. At this point I decided that I needed to make some changes.
Change #1: Lose the guy. I tried to stay friends with him, but... he never got over the fact that I wouldnt' accept him back into my dating life. This to me only screams my correct judgement in letting him go. If you cannot be mature enough to understand why it was so hard for me to forgive you for abandoning me when I needed support the most, then you are not the person for me.
Change #2: I did the one thing I had been wanting to do forever and was too scared to try. I joined roller derby. One of the best things I have ever done for myself. It gave me something to hold on to. It gave me confidence. It gave me a group of girls who will never turn their backs on me. It gave me a reason to keep going.
Change #3: I decided that I would never depend upon anyone so much as I did my parents again. Though this was maybe unrealistic on the dating front (I mean, when you love someone, you depend on them, right?), it has brought me on a journey of self-reilance that I needed. I am so much further out of debt, I take care of my own car, I usually am good with my budget, and I do not ever want to ask anyone for money again.
Moving from my parents and joining roller derby also help me slow my drinking role. I wanted nothing more back then than to be OUT of my parents house. My options? Drink with my friends. When I moved into H's house, I wanted to be home more, so I stopped going out drinking all the time. When I joined roller derby, I pretty much stopped drinking regularly all together (you cannot go to derby hungover, heck. no.). Not that drinking is a bad thing, but I think maybe my parents thought I was an alcoholic or something. I wasn't, I just.. didn't want to sit at home in my room in my parents house night after night being nagged and controlled.
Over the past year, I have developed a relationship with a guy I had met back in March of 2011. My new guy, B, is my best friend, my lover, my sidekick, and my supporter. He wants the same thing I do in life. I can see myself in five years with him, our kids, our many dogs, and our cute little house. He is perfect for me in all the ways I need. He's got a huge heart and cares for me so much. I couldnt' be happier.
One year ago today if you asked me where I thought I would be in a year, I would not have had any clue that this is where I would be at in my life. But I am so happy where I am and would not change a thing. Though my parents alienated themselves from me in a way that I dont think will ever change, I actually thank them for giving me an ultimatum on my life and I am still proud of my decision to stand up against them. (I do talk to my parents and have come along way with them, I just know that them doing this to me will always be in the back of my mind... warning me.)
Osama Bin Laden. Dead for a year. A year that completely changed my life.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Who am I, really?
After reading James McWhinney's article, I was inspired to try and find out who I really am. McWhinney feels that these 6 questions will lead you to finding your true self. Hopefully... It works. :) Just like McWhinney... I find on a daily basis that my course in life is one that was... set for me.. by society. I am an accountant. Honestly, I'm good at it. I am smart, capable, pretty organized, fair, and totally understand numbers... budgets, payroll, payables, receivable. I get all that. But. It bores me. To death. One day, I want to be in a job where I am able to enjoy myself and able to actually say that I have fun at and love my job.
"If you want to live an extraordinary life it is imperative that you know who you truly are, and to do so you must explore who you truly are."
So... here we go.
"If you want to live an extraordinary life it is imperative that you know who you truly are, and to do so you must explore who you truly are."
So... here we go.
- What do I absolutely love in life?
- Roller Derby
- Baking and decorating cakes
- Animals... taking care of them, helping them, just.. being with them.
- Motorcycles... riding them
- Friends and family
- Children. I love being around them, teaching them, helping them. But. Only 5 or less at a time. hehe
- What are my greatest accomplishments in life so far?
- Joining roller derby
- Slowly paying off my debt, but making huge progress at it over the past two years.
- Having tons of people see and taste my cakes and tell me they're amazing and that my skills are amazing.
- What would I stand for if I knew no one would judge me?
- I would love to be able to have the time to be an advocate for shelters... to get more people to adopt an animal instead of buying them, to donate my time and if I had it, money, to local shelters, to foster animals in need while they wait for their forever homes.
- If my life had absolutely no limits and I could have it all and do whatever I wanted, what would I choose to have and what would I choose to do?
- My ideal lifestyle... I would have a husband and a house with kids all over the place. I would have a dog kennel and a couple of horses to take care of in the morning and then head to my cake shop where I was incredibly successful. It asks what kind of person I would be. I would like to think I'd be the same person I am today, but able to help people with the resources that were now available to me.... donate to charities, take in foster dogs, give people a warm and positive place to board their dogs without feeling wrong for leaving them. I would make enough to stay out of debt and be able to take a few fun vacations to other countries. I would like where ever my husband and I chose to live. I don't really care where, as long as I am happy.
- What would I do if I had one billion dollars?
- Buy land.
- Build a house... with a small horse barn and a large kennel.
- Buy a place to start up a bakery and... start up the bakery.
- I would pay off my parents debts and my sister's and... probably help some of my best friends out too, at least pay off one or two things for them.
- I would travel with B to Ireland and Scotland and Wales and Hungary... either all at once or one at a time.
- I would use my time to run the bakery, volunteer with local animal shelters, raise my children, and be an integral part of my roller derby team!
- Who do I admire most in the world?
- I admire some of the top derbiers in the world (Suzy Hotrod, Bonnie Thunders, Teflon Donna) because of their determination and passion for being a roller girl.
- I admire Duff... from Charm City Cakes.. the star shop of Ace of Cakes. Duff started CCC on his own, building it up into this glorious shop where people have fun and produce some of the most amazing cakes I've ever seen. Duff rules the roost but is laid back and fun at the same time, I can only hope that one day I will run a cake shop in the same manner!
- I admire all of our military. They gave everything they have to protect and fight for our country. I sometimes wish I had chosen that path in life... But instead, I will just praise them with all I have and never forget to thank them for the sacrifices that they made to be in the military.
Monday, April 23, 2012
The Hunger Games Review
The Hunger Games Trilogy
by Suzanne Collins
I, like so many others, got absolutely sucked into this trilogy. I could not put down my Kindle all through books one and two (The Hunger Games and Catching Fire) and by book three (Mockingjay) I was purposely not reading for a few days at a time just because I simply did not want the story to end. The way that Collins pulls us into Katniss Everdeen's life is amazing. There's no way that you can root against her. She's honest, to the point, and very realistic about her life in Panem. You want her to open up so much... either to Gale or Peeta... you go back and forth between rooting for the two male characters as much as Katniss does!
Katniss's obvious fear of commitment stems from her mistrust of her parents... from her father for dieing so young and from her mother from 'checking out' after his death. Throughout the story you see her go from struggling against this fear of commitment... to using it to her advantage. After Peeta gets brain washed by the Capital, she once again has to deal with losing someone whom she placed so much trust and love into (whether she knew it at the time or not).
Watching Katniss develop as the country's Mockingjay was quite inspiring and shows how much someone with honest, well-meaning intentions can bring together a group, a town, a country.. to rise against oppression. By simply showing the country that even a 16 year old girl can beat the odds and go against the rules, she creates a ripple effect that changes her and her country's world forever. Or at least, until the next uprising.
I highly recommend this series. If you're looking for violence, a hint of romance, and a character whose ride is infatuating, this is your next triology!
May the odds be ever in your favor!
by Suzanne Collins
I, like so many others, got absolutely sucked into this trilogy. I could not put down my Kindle all through books one and two (The Hunger Games and Catching Fire) and by book three (Mockingjay) I was purposely not reading for a few days at a time just because I simply did not want the story to end. The way that Collins pulls us into Katniss Everdeen's life is amazing. There's no way that you can root against her. She's honest, to the point, and very realistic about her life in Panem. You want her to open up so much... either to Gale or Peeta... you go back and forth between rooting for the two male characters as much as Katniss does!
Katniss's obvious fear of commitment stems from her mistrust of her parents... from her father for dieing so young and from her mother from 'checking out' after his death. Throughout the story you see her go from struggling against this fear of commitment... to using it to her advantage. After Peeta gets brain washed by the Capital, she once again has to deal with losing someone whom she placed so much trust and love into (whether she knew it at the time or not).
Watching Katniss develop as the country's Mockingjay was quite inspiring and shows how much someone with honest, well-meaning intentions can bring together a group, a town, a country.. to rise against oppression. By simply showing the country that even a 16 year old girl can beat the odds and go against the rules, she creates a ripple effect that changes her and her country's world forever. Or at least, until the next uprising.
I highly recommend this series. If you're looking for violence, a hint of romance, and a character whose ride is infatuating, this is your next triology!
May the odds be ever in your favor!
Abraham Lincoln-Vampire Hunter Review
Abraham Lincoln - Vampire Hunter
by Seth Grahame- Smith
What can I say about this novel? I had to force myself to finish it.
Maybe it is because I'm not a huge history bluff. Maybe it is because I like my vampires to be more gory. But I honestly can say that I just wasn't that impressed with this book at all. There were times I would put it down for DAYS and not want to pick it up. And not in the "I really really dont want this story to end so I'm going to drag it out" kind of way. It was the "Its just not pulling me in" kind of way. The author did not make me relate to Pres. Lincoln at all. The twist at the end was a little interesting, and growing up not far from Antietam Battlefield (10 minutes from my parents) and Gettysburg (30 minutes up into PA from my house) made those parts of the story a little exciting, but... it was just a story of a guy with a life-long vendetta. That he, in the end, really, loses.
Feel free to comment with your opinions, I'd love hear about this book from a different perspective!
by Seth Grahame- Smith
What can I say about this novel? I had to force myself to finish it.
Maybe it is because I'm not a huge history bluff. Maybe it is because I like my vampires to be more gory. But I honestly can say that I just wasn't that impressed with this book at all. There were times I would put it down for DAYS and not want to pick it up. And not in the "I really really dont want this story to end so I'm going to drag it out" kind of way. It was the "Its just not pulling me in" kind of way. The author did not make me relate to Pres. Lincoln at all. The twist at the end was a little interesting, and growing up not far from Antietam Battlefield (10 minutes from my parents) and Gettysburg (30 minutes up into PA from my house) made those parts of the story a little exciting, but... it was just a story of a guy with a life-long vendetta. That he, in the end, really, loses.
Feel free to comment with your opinions, I'd love hear about this book from a different perspective!
90% Awesome, 10% Dork
I got this idea after reading this post on Honest to Blog.
Having very recently finished up The Hunger Games trilogy, Katniss's effort to hold onto reality is very fresh in my mind. Starting with the most basic truths in her life, she finds a way to hold onto herself in all the confusing situations she gets caught up in. I thought I'd follow Carynn's lead and... find my own reality in the truths of my world.
- My name is Kathleen.
- My friends and family call me Katy.
- I live in Martinsburg.
- I work as an accountant in Greencastle.
- I hate being an accountant.
- I have a wonderful cat named Mocha.
- I believe in God.
- I do not believe in putting restrictions on one's faith and spiritualism.
- I believe in the power of Roller Derby.
- I like motorcycles and riding.
- I like cigarettes.
- I like beer.
- I hate water.
- I like to craft.
- I am 90% Awesome, 10% Dorky, and 100% okay with that.
- I love being with my friends.
- I love having some alone time.
- I love my Marine, B.
- I like all animals.
- I am good at decorating cakes.
- I want to be friends with everyone.
- I only want to spend time with my best friends, as I have too little time to spare, which means I dont spend as much time with them as I wish.
- I overwork and overschedule myself.
- I want to be more organized on a daily basis.
- I love to organize and clean.
- I hate healthy food.
- I want to be more fit.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Lists
List What You'd Do With An Enormous Amount of Money
In no particular order....
- Pay off my debts (Credit Cards, Student Loan, Car)
- Pay off my parents debts
- Pay off B's debts
- Buy a piece of B's family's land and build a pretty house (with a horse barn!!)
- Buy a motorcycle and a camero
- Donate to humane societies and animal shelters, maybe even start one of our own
- Take a month long trip to Scotland/Ireland with B
- Take a trip to Hawaii
- Take a trip to visit friends in California
- Live happily ever after and only work jobs I like and not have money tie me down to jobs I dislike!!
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